为什么？

心有种不踏实的感觉？

为什么会有点忐忑不安？

心情总是七上八下。。。

真不想看见会实现。。。。

The Different

when young....

go for learning because of interested.

that time looking for putting my own art works on the billboard.

putting more effort in, learn and learn more.

yes...i did it, very happy.....when ppl saw it, is ald to knw tats is who who who works.

which and which and which is he did.

every time art work on the billboard was very happy.

happy nt about the ppl talk about it or needed for praise from them.

when happy is about u did smth that u feel good and had been endorsed by ppl.

so the reward was doesnt matter.

bt now,

study because of interested also.

bt cant even think about the billboard.

because need to do the thing which the senior like or the boss..

if u cant pass them, u dnt even think about to let ppl endorsed ur works, see ur works.

tats truth.

no matter how u do, once the senior or boss dnt like jz delete it. tats all

no matter how, once ur work is wrong then is ur fault

they dnt even say they are wrong.(the truth is they wrong)

so u cant even argue with them, "u told me tat, u pass me the msg like tat, was you did it i didnt touch anything....etc"

because of wat?

BECAUSE YOU ARE THE JUNIOR, YOU ARE NEW

(what the hell is that?!)

so now, the different is do wat they wan wat they like, is nt about u like it or wat.

of course still like tis job bt nt the "ppl"(senior and the boss)

the differences obviously can see ald.

nth can do about it.

jz hv to admit it, tats the life.

we gonna SURVIVE.

接受

有时怕的不是失败或是拒绝，

而怕的是- 接受

害怕接受失败，

害怕接受拒绝，

害怕接受现实，

害怕接受不想要的东西。。。。

接受 - 对我们而言，真的这么难吗？

那又是为什么？

____________________________________________________________

要寻求突破。。。。

A Fisherman

A poor fisherman.

so the way he lives is fishing use fishing net.(废话)

He feels the fish which got caught weren't enough for the coin to survive in the bad situation any more. 

Because the net size is not standard which make it himself. Some fish get "escape" from it.

After that, he decided to go far a bit to get some different kind of fish which the net can catch it to earn more coins.

For the first few days, the situation looked bad. Isn't same as what he thought before...

However, he still didn't give up yet. And he found one big and nice fish wish to catch it.

While fishing time, the fish was fighting to get out the net, got some moment the fish doesn't move.

He thought that was end for the fish fighting. He get ready to has a great harvest for the day. 

But the things doesn't good for every times.

At the last moment, the fish used the largest strength it had finally escaped.

from the moment found the fish and fishing until the fish escaped, the feeling is like playing the roller coaster.

and unfortunately the fish destroy the only equipment he can use for survive.

he feels very upset, disappointed, lost the mind....

he did nothing for the few days, even few months.

he cant live if continue like that, so he took his "heart" to repair. 

day by day for the repairing....used a lot of time and heart....

finally, it done....

get ready for the challenge, but yet inside his heart starting afraid will happen again ?to destroy the time and heart he used for repaired the net.

no matter how he still need to go for the fishing.....

he told himself, if he meet the fish again he will never let it go for the second time, if doesn't he still will get the others....

but will he success ?

may be ?

50 % ?

nobody.....

nobody will know it.........

EMPTY

after a fully rush assignment days,

now,

feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo empty.

empty is nt tat nth to do..is jz mind empty tat dnt knw wat the nxt to do

now gonna find design firm for intern,

although i sent email, 

waiting feedback,

dnt knw gt feedback or nt,

bt yt still feel no direction,

y ?

hope can faster gt some job to fill it up the empty space.

may be tats the way?

dnt knw....

WHAT IS THE EMPTY ? 

i dnt knw...